Saturday, May 30, 2009

Waiting for a SISTER!!!!!!

Noah and I doing our Spongebobe & Patrick move!

Some more of what we do around here...

The wheather here in Florida has been a little wet! When it has been sunny, the boys and I have been trying to make the most!

While we wait!

My Dream

Okay guys I had a dream; of a pink room, and a beautiful baby girl. She is one of the little girls on the photosite..and I don't know why I am in love with her. Maybe she looks alot like my husband, and that is why I am hooked. I am sure; going to Moscow blind, is the best thing for us, because look how silly it is to get attached to a picture..I am already setting myself up!

Anyway..its been very hard for me to decide on a shade of a pink paint for the room (guess I just don't have the experience). In this dream, the room was beautiful and a perfect shade of pink. I just remember in the dream, having a sling and taking this baby everywhere with me. Its going to be hard, I will not be able to ever leave her (I don't leave my boys with anyone but our mother(s)), so imagine what it will be like with our new little addition. Our friends & family are going to get irritated.

I think it is best if we take these next few months, and enjoy eachother. Take time for the boys, and do lots this summer. No matter what it is going to be an adjustment with a fourth child, let alone a baby girl! I have already told my friends, that we are not throwing some big party afterwards..that we are going to need time, and alot of it. For my husband that will not be an issue, he is so very occupied with his boat.

My boys want another dog, and I do too in the future..but I don't think it will be any time soon. Four kids and 2 dogs is going to be a zoo. We have already adopted our neighbors 2 cats, who stay outside! We rescued our english bulldog, and she has been great..but enough for a big family. English bulldogs are wonderful for small children! They are not very active, (so no jumping on the kids, or knocking them down), they are very very affectionate & cuddly, don't like to be walked too long or heat, so must stay indoors, and they are small enough to fit in a crate! SO with other dogs anytime soon. We were given two cockatiels for Easter and someone left the cage door open recently and they flew away! I didn't like cleaning after them, but I still feel bad, and naiively, I am still waiting for them to return?
I figure I have a better chance of receiving the birds back, rather than the I 171 Biometric fingerprint appointment!

Y'know, I stress about this, because I still have other paperwork to take care of. I still have to do the FBI prints and send away for it..but it feels hopeless without the I 171 (permission for Orphan petition).


Wednesday, May 27, 2009

Orchestra of feelings..

James 1:27 Religion that God accepts as pure and faultless is this; to look after Orphans & Widows in their distress….

Well I am happy to announce that we are second in line for a Eurasian/Asian girl 24months & under! We will probably be traveling in the fall! YIPPPPEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!

I feel so anxious; especially during this adoption process, your always thinking okay just one more step to getting closer...but your never close enough!
I thought I would feel so relieved once our Dossier would be sent off..and then I would stop holding my breath keep myself busy with the boys. I have to thank God my boys are great! They keep themselves busy, they only need me for breakfast/luch/supper..oh and laundry too.

Freddy & I started on this adoption journey ever so cautiously. During our wonderful experience with our social worker (homestudy); we began falling in love with this little girl we were going to call Hope. I felt like I couldn't get through the paperwork fast enough. There was always some unique obstacle for us. I was a Canadian and not a U.S. Citizen, or the money wouldn't be there to ever even fathom the idea of an International doubt began giving birth to fear!
Perhaps the idea of us having a little girl, would be just a fantasy and would never happen. Though, when we'd attend Church every service became a stronger message than the next; and more than just the heart's desire, began speaking to me.
I felt painful desires to raise a girl, painful desires for just one child more in our family. The excess of necessity, for parents for unwanted children, started revealing itself to me as well. It is more than just adding to our family now, it is also a duty to help these children who need a family. I find myself asking at times, if it will only be one more? I know I will be at max with 4 kids, but how do I know? How am I going to go to Russia and leave all the rest of the children there? Only God knows what that day will be like, or wether I will have a better understanding of why, things are the way that they are. We can only trust God for those answers and for the reasoning.

Also; Freddy, does not want to paint Hope's room until the very last minute! Grrrrrr. I must know deep down that he is right...but I don't want to feel that our reasons are 'superstitious'. Christians are not supposed to be 'superstitious'! We are not to make too many plans ahead of ourselves, but we are not to believe in 'luck' or 'superstition' either. Acts 4:28 (NIV)28 They did what your power and will had decided beforehand should happen. Also a very powerful one is
Colossians 2:8–10 (NIV)8 See to it that no one takes you captive through hollow and deceptive philosophy, which depends on human tradition and the basic principles of this world rather than on Christ. 9 For in Christ all the fullness of the Deity lives in bodily form, 10 and you have been given...

These days I have friends all throwing their cribs at me, (maybe reason I am so tempted to start room), and I think its kind of funny....because I don't have a baby girl yet, but it sure is nice to know, that when that time comes, I will have a lot of help & support.

Okay; I have blabbed enough..guess I am trying to hide the fact that my I 171 has not arrived yet, let alone the Biometrics appointment...gee I sound like a broken record!

Thursday, May 21, 2009

Still NO I 171...

I just needed to say this publicly; I made a phone call to USCIS, asking about our - I600A application. The lady agreed that I should have atleast received my biometrics appointment in 30 days...well we got NADA! Then they feed you 'the case by case' line...sob I run to the mailbox like a crazy everyday waiting for that envelope! AAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

There; now I feel better;)

Have a Happy Memorial Weekend Folks!

Saturday, May 16, 2009


I guess by looking at the amount of posts these last few days and the Blog's new look, you can feel the excitement;))

Today we celebrate eight years of marriage..the best eight years of my life. A life filled with adventure, children and true love!

God has Blessed us so much with these overwhelming Blessings. So all I want to say today, is Thank You Lord for everything! You must truly love us to have given us everything that we have.

No Anniversary present for us this year..sending off our Dossier and paying our Agency is our present to eachother. This is a very special Anniversary..the best yet, probably nothing will ever top it.

God watch over the little girl that waits to be our child.

In Jesus's precious name;


Friday, May 15, 2009


Please show your support of Adoption!

Cost to bring home a child from a foreign Orphanage is a lot more than an average family can afford. Though the power of Love cannot be underestimated; and money should never be enough reason, for this child to remain in a hopeless institution. We live in a great country; where children here don’t usually go to bed unfed.
In Russian Orphanages, children are relinquished due to extreme poverty. Where they will grow up without much education and/or nutrition; and by sixteen (if they make it that old) they will be kicked out and led to a life of probable prostitution, exploitation, crime or suicide. Nothing is worse than growing up without the love of parents.

The need to do this on our behalf, is beyond words that can describe reasoning. All I know is that at one point I accepted that I had three boys, I was in love with the fact that I had three boys...then all of a sudden during our 2008 'Operation Christmas Mission..I got bitten by a bug. I wept so hard when I saw these children without parents and with so much poverty. I wept that my boys have so much and that there are children who have so little..not even love. I began thinking that there was something more that I could do. Something more than just buying some toys and cutting a check for charity.

I HAVE A DAUGHTER OUT THERE...she does not have to be out of my womb, to be my daughter! God's plan for our family has begun to take shape and was doing so rapidly...We just had to listen. Programs were closing all over the world or becoming delayed..Domestic Adoptions here in the U.S.A seemed very complexe, and not a winning situation for our family (a family that was already considerably large).

..A dear friend of mine shows up on my porch early one morning with a refridgerator magnet. It was small, blue and had a Lighthouse on it, along with a passage from the Bible.

Proverbs 3:5-6 Trust in the Lord with all your heart..and he shall direct your paths.

Ever since this day, we have known what to do and where to Adopt from. This would be from a country with children that truly needed us... RUSSIA!

She is our destiny, she is somewhere in Russia. We have chosen a wonderful Adoption Agency (Lighthouse Adoptions of course). God has led us to them and other couples, who have adopted through them. We will be adopting from Moscow; also prechosen by God, its the only place we will be able to reach Russia, 'stand by'. we have left our application pretty open; all ethnicities with or without minor correctible special needs. I was stressing over this at one time, but am no longer because its in God's hands. He knows our daughter already, he knows what she will bring to our family. He knew then, when I was crying after having Noah (my third son), that I was naiive and unaware that I'd be a mother once more, despite my husband's vasectomy. For he is truly in control.


Thursday, May 14, 2009

Sent Dossier off for Apostilles!!!!

Well guys, I finally got the courage to make up my mind, with God's assistance of course, we sent off our Dossier!

This morning I woke up strong & confident that God was going to guide me & feed me. No longer was I going to fumble & moan about what I should do, God just worked it right through me. I must have counted the papers & pics like ten times, my fingers shakingly moving through the papers, making sure all T's were crossed, and all was notarized.

I pray that it gets to its destination in one peice and that no corrections will need to be made. If everyone else can do can I!

The I 171H has not yet arrived, but I am no longer going to sweat it, because I am sure it will arrive when it is time. We probably will not travel till the fall, anyway, so let it take its sweet time getting here!

Also, to confirm this was a Blessed day; we got a phone call from a grant adoption ministry, updating our application and asking us how it is they can help! WOW..I was floating on air! Lord you did it pulled the carpet from under my feet. Thank you dear God, for everything my Heavenly Father. All is truly possible through you! Soon I too, will be glowing my all too familiar pregnancy glow (expecting our Russian princess). Wonder how it is going to differ from carrying boys?

I want to thank so many of the adoptive mothers from my agency who have helped me through this painful process..wink*.

God Bless guys!

Saturday, May 9, 2009

Mother in many Languages

Adoption Fundraiser

We didn't even know your name
But we loved you just the same
we prayed and we dreamed
of the day we would meet
This special little person
who would make our lives complete
You needed someone to care for you
We needed someone to love

(copy & paste link to buy your raffle)

RAFFLES ARE $5.00 Please participate..time is running out!

Tuesday, May 5, 2009


As you know we are nearing the time when we will send out our Dossier, and hopefully that will follow with a quick referral..but it does get expensive especially in a dear friend of mine has made a raffle for our adoption, the jewlery she makes is all handmade, unique and of very high quality. It means a lot to us; if you share an interest in this jewelry Design, buy a raffle and own this original peice!

Good Luck & God Bless!

Click the link for details & Instruction;)

..and a very big thank you in believing in our cause...MUAHHHHH!

Sunday, May 3, 2009

All about Worries..

Hey Guys!

I told myself I was not going to post unless I had news; which, I do not have..I am quite down because USCIS did not even cash my check I guess I am no where near getting my fingerprints or I 171 yet-sux!

I know I am so ridiculous for running outside to check the mailbox everyday..I am not even waiting for a referral yet and I am an anxious mess! I have my Dossier ready sans I its still a no go until then. I can get things apostilled, but what is the point if I do not have that last peice of importance? I am sure glad I have my sister near by to keep me distracted or I'd be insane. I know everybody is going through their ups and downs especially in these hard times..I should be happy and feel blessed that my only stressor is this these days.

I sure got a lot of important, loving & supportive people in my life, and I guess that is all that matters;)

I have not received any word of any grants or loan opportunities, but I pray for some sign that we will be ok financially for this adoption.

Matthew 6:31-34

31 So do not worry, saying, "what shall we eat?" or "what shall we drink?" or "what shall we wear?"
32 For the paguns run after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them.
33 But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well.
34 Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.

So what if we worry?

We worry because we look at what we can do and not on what God can do through us. Worrying is an act of disbelief, mistrust and doubt on God's sovereignty and power! He said through the prophet Jeremiah, "I am the LORD, the God of all mankind. Is anything too hard for me? Jeremiah 32:27".

What the Lord Promises

The Heavenly Father knows what you need even before you ask Him. Yes, you read it right! He already KNOWS what you need.