Doctor's Visit

Today could not have gone better! I came back home with Freddy's results, but not mine. Although, I know my papers are in good hands; I've known my Doctor for quite some time now. He was the first Doc to confirm my pregnancy with lil Frederick..but he only delivered Noah. Fred and I later had lunch together, and we felt like we accomplished another step towards the Adoption. Now I will pack tomorrow and clean house and then just relax and take in Orlando's experience.

Todays's message on Ash Wednesday; was from Psalm 1

my favorite part was..

3And he shall be like a tree planted by the rivers of water, that bringeth forth his fruit in his season; his leaf also shall not wither; and whatsoever he doeth shall prosper.

The pastor explained that sometimes when we feel that God is not present, or we feel we are not being utulized by God, perhaps it is only because it is not our season to bare fruit. But when it is, we shall bare much fruit. I will take this Adoption in this way...perhaps at times I am to be here to help others grow and prosper with God.

I a wait for my season Lord...

Errands for this week..

Tomorrow Freddy & I will go the doctor's office to get a physical, and to fill out some paper work for the Adoption. I pray this will go smoothly and that we will leave with completed paperwork. Since we have paused the Homestudy; I feel as though we have headed nowhere, my whole life feels on hold right now. I don't want to mope around the house feeling sorry for myself..but that is what I appear to be doing lately. I've been so lonely these days, that I seem to have attracted visitors...MICE! I hear them at night and it freaks me out cause Fred's at work at night. So not only am I dealing with life's pauses..but I am also dealing with mice in this crazy Florida climate of 2009.

I know I need to be patient and positive. We will do the medicals, I will email them to our Social Worker. I will clean the house and begin preparing and packing for Orlando. I will take this Orlando trip and see it as more Adoption Education, which is never a waste of time. I feel embarressed sometimes for having so many questions for our Agency..but I can't help but want to hear assurance, does this make me weak?
We will be going with all three boys and my mother in law Esperanza (Hope in english). This could be very good for our family; time away and time together, embracing this giant step into the future of our growing family.

We will begin to plan another garage sale. I also have these ideas about a dinner and dance at the church banquet hall..maybe a salsa night then a christian get together night all for fundraising for the adoption. I feel strong with these ideas, but I am not ready to go forward until I see this adoption moving a little more. Maybe once I get Immigration papers and send off our Dossier. I will feel more confident.

The Dossier seems so intimidating, and I have some Adoptive Parents who have helped me..I pray for strength in this and the patience, please help me God.

All of your comments have been very up lifting and motivating, please never hesitate with any advice or criticism;)

A Message for today...

..But those who trust in the Lord will renew their strength;


THEY WILL SOAR ON THE WINGS LIKE EAGLES;

they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not faint.

ISAIAH 40:31

Our Family of BOYS!

This family needs HOPE!

Orlando's Reunion!

Okay folks, been away for a while had drama!

The homestudy is being on hold currently because of taxes..I want to do our taxes of 2008 because they just are better than '07!

Also, I do not have an American passport yet, and have not attended the swearing in ceremony yet..because I didn't receive anything in the mail! So until I work out that drama..no go on I-600a for immigration! Sucks!

Though I truly believe any holts or delays are because of God's time and my little girl's time..she just isn't available yet.

Now, we are leaving to Orlando next weekend 27th-29th. Do not want to go to Disney..but will end up going because that is how life is!

Most importantly, we will get to meet the people of our AGENCY! Lighthouse! How amazing and important is that? We also, will meet the families who have brought home their Russian Angels! SO its a big weekend for us!

GARAGE SALE SUCCESS!

We had a great day! Today's garage sale (our first) brought in $500.00..it was amazing, along with the support! We cannot thank God enough for his light..sometimes it just feels too good to be true.

Freddy, I and the kids all went to Chillis's to eat tonight to celebrate our success. Its been stressful on all of us, and we've been sick which doesn't help. Though, I am so proud of my boys..they are getting so big and adorable.

I want to thank the Lord so much for all that I have..we're a very blessed family. We also sold the boat, in which will also go toward's Hope's adoption.

Amen

TA DAAAAA

WELL...WE ARE IN THE CLEARRRRRRR!

Freddy had to go save the day..again. He went to 'DCF' to clarify the confusion; there was a typ-o, with my social..grrrrrr. Hey its all cleared up and thats all that matters. Since then, we got our letter from the Pediatrician (I love that guy he's the best, he happens to be Russian). We completed our Adoption courses, Freddy even did his part. Though Fred's sick now..so that's a bit of a bummer; since, we need to also get our medicals out of the way..oh well all in good time I suppose. We still need to go to Ft Lauderdale Sherriff's dept. for our local backround search...and I am still waiting for the swearing in and passport process as a New American Citizen hooray!!!

I have been putting things aside with the help of friends and relatives; for our upcoming GARAGE SALE on saturday Feb.7th at 7AM! I hope its not too cold! This should be interesting and fun and challenging all at the same time. Fred thinks were nuts!

No one can estimate the will and love of a mother even though I have no idea what Hope is like..I know she's there, and she's mine, waiting for her Mommy!

God has our back and he's our guiding light, because we are so blind on this..he's just leading us and we have no choice but to go full fledged.

I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me. Philippians 4:13

The Good News & The Bad News..

Well I guess this will be the longest posting yet cause I feel so miserable! The Boys are sick and home from school. I think I am now coming down with it as well. The good news is, we officially signed with Lighthouse Adoptions YEAHHHHHHH!

http://www.lighthouseadoptions.net/

Now for the bad..;o(

Well our social worker, emailed us saying that five reports came back under our last name for the state police clearance; which is impossible!!
So since we looked so stunned by the news, she now thinks, that there may be some confusion with the last name..(which happens a lot apparently). I know that it could very well be just that, an error. That, I should calm down..but it seems like a smack in the face really! Out of all the things that can go wrong..this just seems so strange and so left field..things start playing around in your mind like..'is your husband really your husband..did you kill someone in your sleep? Okay..bad joke..

I don't know..someone told me today, that it's better we stumble now and fix this (which can be fixed) because its a misunderstanding..rather than something really big, over seas or something...I guess that's a positive way of looking at it..sigh.I can't help but be disappointed for whatever reason and for so many reasons.

Today is a strange day, its the 02/02/09, I made a check out to the agency that was 1222..seems like a day I will remember strangely because of these number coincidences and of course, this incident of bad news!