I-600A SENT!!!!

Okay, today is very EXCITING!!

Even more than yesterday..We sent off the I 600A application, (petition to bring an Orphan to America)!!! I am so jittery..hmm could be the third cuban coffee I had today..I also sent off two packages to a Bulgarian Orphanage, hoping I could send a little bit of Love their way (thank you Jesus for your guiding light).

I also applied to rush my American Passport...YEAHHH! Finally! Three weeks is considered a rush, yikes! Anyhoo I know God is with us and I pray for his guidance and blessing on this adoption. I felt myself so excited and wanting to rush the papers off, and then I would feel myself start to feel fearful and think, what if its too soon? What if we're not ready? Emotionally, physically..or worse,..financially? AHHHHH! STOP ALREADY..something said inside me..its on God's time he knows when we will be ready all we can do is our part and pray. Now we plan on finishing up our Dossier, and getting them notarized & apostilled (don't ask) and hopefully getting it there to russia before they're all on vacation!

Wooooooh..

Guys any Comments are welcomed & encouraged..thank you everybody for your words, patience & kindness.

God Bless.

Finally an AMERICAN!

I can tell you that today I am officially an American Citizen. I tried to get my passport started but did not make it in time. We will go tomorrow and do that. I cannot wait to finally send out the I 600a for the Orphan petition!

Thank You God for giving me this day, with my husband by my side. I didn't want to cry, but I got a little choked up when I saw the footage of the early Americans and the children from different parts of the world arriving to America. Wars that have landed us here, the fight that brought us here..I have waited a long time, and now after eight years, I will continue the gift of Adoption by bringing home our little girl to America..the country that my family Adopted and love so much.

God Bless America,

Amen

Follow your Shepard

Jesus knew you before you were ever concieved
in your Mothers womb. He knew every Sin that you would commit in this life and yet he still "Chose" to die on the Cross for you. Why? Because he loves you un-conditionally. Jesus
knows what we go through here in the world. Remember, he has been there and done that. So don't ever let the enemy convince you that God doesn't love you because he does and always will. Remember, Jesus said he would never leave nor forsake us. So when we feel un-loved its only because we have walked away from him. But he's still there right where we left him, waiting
for us to turn around and come back. Its so important that you know this, because you are "everything" to God and he loves you so much. Believe me when I say, the enemy will do anything he can to convince you that you are un-loved, a failure, worthless, ect. But the fact of the matter is; "You belong to Jesus Christ!" He paid the price for you with his Blood and he is not about to let you go! NEVER! God understands... Just talk to him for he is a very forgiving God! Believe me, I know. So be Blessed.. In Jesus Name!

TWIN BIRDS!

My mother in law Esperanza (Hope), decided a great Easter present for the boys would be birds (Cockatiels). We have a boy & girl (course I'd still get a boy right?). Skip & Angela..cute; guess those were the twins I was referring to, never had birds before, so this should be interesting. Today I observed on the photosite some of the most beautiful babies born in 2008..like 20 new pics of these precious girls. I am excited again..anyone of those girls would be a blessing to us. I can't believe we are ready with all our paperwork, and that we are just waiting for my swearing in..that has to be God! For some reason, my timing has to be this way, and I respect that. I guess someone knows that when I try to do things my way, it is so impulsive & emotional rather than rational & logical. I am glad that he is looking our for us..especially my husband Freddy! The boys need to be done with school and in the same school, rather than this nutty double school thing that we did for Mackenzie, just so that he could attend at 4. We will probably just have to redo the medicals & maybe the financial part will be for the better..it already does look better!

HAHA April Fool's..for me anyway!

Well..I really don't know what to say except that..its taking forever to be an American!

Y'know, I was born in the same Continent..this is getting ridiculous..I go down there to the immigration office hoping its just this quick small ceremony..and what do you know? They call me in and start asking me, why is it my signatures don't match, the signatures on my pictures..uhh..cause there was no room to sign on my pictures..I would end up scribbling on my face? I started this process when I was 18..I am now 26 and still not done yet. I was born in Canada, I have been traveling back and forth in the United States since I was 12, I married at 18...ok I am depressed! Big Time!

I know this is God's timing..I know it is only for my own good..but I am starting to get cold feet in the waiting process. Freddy has a second job now; I am pushing my friends away because I prefer isolation over conversation. I am grieving over a child that was brutally beaten in Russia recently..it may be the only thing that is keeping me going in the adoption direction though. I have friends who are adopting, and it seems like things just fall on their laps, and my path of adoption seems almost impossible at times. SIGH.

We really need to sell our rental; if we do this and are successful with this, then I will feel better and far less pressured about life's trials and errors. Freddy's mom recently gave us money for our adoption, I didn't know if I wanted to cry or if I wanted to jump up and down, if I was happy or if I was sad. Maybe I am getting overwhelmed by alot. I am terribly afraid now...and I don't really know why. I missed church on Wednesday because I forgot it was Wednesday..see how lost I am? I look to God for answers, and I know he is near, but I feel weak and tired. I will continue to pray and I will continue to search..God's timing. Sometimes all of your blogs is what keeps me going. I see how happy some of you are after your triumphs, or I see your courage for continuing the journey and it keeps me moving..so keep doing what you are doing..stay strong.

Wings of Destiny..

We witness a miracle every time a child enters into life, but those who make their journey home across time and miles, growing within the hearts of those who wait to love them, are carried on the wings of destiny and placed among us by God's very own hands.

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Good thing her daddy works for the airlines!

We got Baptized yesterday together! It was AMAZING! I knew we were going to someday renew our vows; but not anymore cause, we did in front of our church. Only, this time we did it in Christ. Made me melt..freddy dunked me in the water, and pulled me out..hmm good thing he pulled me out..guess he still loves me;)

Can this week be any better? My birthday, a beautiful Baptism, and now hopefully, my Ceremony on wednesday...what's next..twins? HeHe!

Another year older...

Then He took a little child and set him in the midst of them. And when He had taken him in His arms, He said to them, "Whoever receives one of these little children in My name receives Me; and whoever receives Me, receives not Me but Him who sent Me."
Mark 9:36-37


Okay, so I just officially aged another year..better start buying antiaging stuff right?

The only excitement that I am feeling these days is that we are ending the month of March and entering into April..We are getting Baptized on Sunday and declaring publicly, that we will be Born Again Christians for the rest of our lives. Raising our children in Christ and according to his word. Sometimes as people we think, will we ever be able to take such vows? How can we ensure that we won't sin..we always sin because we are of flesh. We won't ever know unless we go to God and let God handle it from there. I really wanted Freddy and I to be Baptized before this adoption; I felt it was important to pray about all of our plans, and to let God know how serious we are about our commitment to him, our boys, future daughter, our family & friends.

Now we will finish up our Dossier (it's a lot of paperwork that all need to be notarized and apostilled by the state). Freddy has been a big help with this and I don't know what I would do without him. Russia also requires some photos of us and of our home..I feel we need to do some painting and some landscaping prior to these photos..it needed to be done anyway..so I look forward to it (Freddy doesn't)!

I will have a whirl wind of things to say on April 1st..I pray its our last step thus far my Citizenship!

Lord hear my prayer,

Amen.