Friday, November 13, 2009
Just wanted to add something here...
You can just imagine where my head is at..right not on my body!
Another PAP once told me something; 'a watched pot never boils'..I took that and was very clueless as to what it truly means..I'm twenty-six, very spontaneous, and impulsive at times..so I'll stand and watch that pot as long as it takes...hehe I even eat standing, 98 percent of the time..well anyway, prior to our very unexpected call, we had no internet for like 4 days!!!! I litterally thought I was DYING! I was freaking out, thinking oh no I cannot check FRUA..I cannot check out Blogs..hehe I just am no longer in touch with the Adoption Community..AAAAAAAAHHHHHHHH! I then started thinking to myself..'you so deserve this Jeannie, you really do'...you go on there too many times in the day/or stay up too late at night..yes! You deserve this! I am sure GOD doesn't really appreciate it either to be frank..I think at one point I was walking to every room with my laptop..like a shoulder-parrot or soemthing...so yes, this was all my doing. Each day..(day 2 & 3 hehe) I would say, well I am actually happy this happend..this was not healthy! I think even when the internet is back up, I will continue without it (aside from bills). That is when I started thinking about sending off the FBI Clearances for apostilles, (see the mind still wanting to do something adoption related/productive)..the morning I woke up and heard my husband talking and typing..I jumped up out of bed..flew down the stairs and sent an email to Lorien...SICK! LOL! Then I was all proud that I didn't bother looking at FRUA or my Blog..and carried on with my morning ritual...HAHAHAHAHA!
Then Lorien called me..
Maybe a watched pot doesn't boil?! I THANK GOD A MILLION TIMES! FOR SO MANY REASONS! I AM STILL THANKING HIM AND CRYING, OVER & OVER AGAIN! EVERYTIME I HEAR A SONG ABOUT HIM..I'LL CRY SOME MORE..I'VE BECOME QUITE A BLUBBERER! HE HAS TAUGHT ME SO MANY THINGS..AND HE JUST REMEMBERS EVERYTHING, LET ME TELL YOU!
Cause when I cried that I was having a boy back in 2007..and I said to him 'GOD I prayed for a girl?' He remained silent until I gave birth and fell in love with my third son Noah (who is my peace munchkin). I was so content with my three boys, that I had my husband 'fixed'...before he went to the clinic, he asked me and said 'what if we still want to try for a girl?'...I laughed and said..'We'll ADOPT!'
Here we are..adopting..something we have always admired in others, and something we just knew we could/would do someday...someday came sooner than expected, yet timed oh so right. We will be in Russia in January for this purpose (GOD willing), on Noah's 3rd birthday..the very same day I embraced my third son..I will embrace and meet our new daughter Hope....see GOD remembered and will have Blessed me 110 times more with four;)