Tuesday, August 25, 2009
Adoption Comic Scripts...
Okay I think I am convincing myself that our adoption journey is a comic script...a very funny comic script that needs to end..right about now! Or next life I get to be a screen writer, without having to live out my screen plays firsthand!
We went to do our FBI fingerprints with our local outreach center, all seemed well enough, the technician was nice and informative. She even said that Fred has better prints than me, and does not understand why USCIS would have any problems with his prints, and that if anyone was to be reprinted it would be me..cause my fingers are small. Anyway, long story short....I get excited about completeing yet another adoption mile, gathering the paperwork, and finding the address to send off the prints, ..stamp, envelope etcetera, also including Fred signing off his part, and of course the fee...which is conveniently done by credit card (as an option)..well all sounds peachy correct? I send it off...feeling good. Then I go take the kids to Mickey D's for dinner before karate class to kill some time..but my credit card gets declined? SO weird..we always pay our bills on time, so I am quite puzzled by this. So then I hand them another credit card and it gets approved just fine. Then later I need to make a stop at the pharmacy, I use the first credit card again (the Mcdonald's lady said that their machine has been acting funny), so I tried it at the pharmacy this time to see...again DECLINED! Now I know its me. I call up my husband and tell him, (he's in Orlando for training) and he's like "oh yeah, I just cancelled that card!" I am like "what?" Freddy how can you cancel without telling me; I never use cash!?!
Then it hits me!!!!!
I USED THE SAME CREDIT CARD FOR THE FBI!
This cannot be happening! A friend of mine is says, "oh adoption has its ups and down etc." This is not about ups and downs girl..this is more like 'bad operator' problems (me&Fred), are not very good at 'take off' mode; maybe once we're flying we'll be good, but right now at this stance, its been hard taking off and getting the engines running! I do not know why he did not tell me? I was talking to him and even asking him about the credit card being in his name or mine..(didn't a bell go off then to tell me that he lost his?).
I mean what I am trying to say here is, that we are making the silliest mistakes these days, crazy things are just happening, we've become so distraught/distracted. It's been hard enough grieving the loss of my uncle..and worrying about my other house, that needed to sell like last year! Where our adoption on the otherhand, has been baby steps, yet comforting baby steps that would leave me at peace...and put my worries away. Though, these goofs are compounding the pain! Arrrghhhhhh!
...HAHAHAHAHAHA gotta laugh right? Before ya cry? I think I missed my calling as a comedian or a stuntman....cause I am taking all the hits this year;(
Seriously guys, how would you fix this? Should I call up the FBI office and explain? Should I just send in another form with the correct credit card info? Sheeesh, people are gonna start thinking I am nuts? Am I nuts?
I need to pray! Cause I am a disaster without God! I try to take worry into my heart, pushing God away when in fact, I need him nearer & dearer than before. I hope God is laughing at me too..I deserve that! I must look so silly running around trying to worry and do ten things at once..not even completing one of those things correctly! (CAN WE SAY A.D.D.?) God, please forgive me for being a foolish woman! Thank you for letting me get to this point, where I am all twisted and tangled, and I am trapped in a web of nothingness!
For without you...everything would be nothingness!
So please Lord, push me aside and take over...make me let you do your thing...so that I can remember that without you I can do nothing....and that no man can live on bread alone. Also, thank you for humbling me.
In Jesus precious name,