Thursday, March 25, 2010
Hopee Takes Five steps Today
Yes, Hope is on a roll. Today we had yet, another Doctor's appointment Blah! She got two shots, and they drew blood;( It was terrible! She was screaming and shutting down,..I felt her pain, and her panick, as I helped hold her down..she must have been so disappointed in me. Anyway, after that ordeal with 4 kids....I gave her some Motrin for pain..and she was happy again, and took five steps towards me! She's a strong girl! I must admitt, the Doctor visits after you are home, is no picnic..and yes, you still have the fears, as you wait for the results..Though at times, I almost feel ridiculous, because God won't give us what we cannot handle.
Wednesday, March 24, 2010
We Are on Lighthouses Welcome Home 2010 Page
YEAHHH! How cool! Check us out will ya! Can't wait to see the rest of our little journey-ers;) on that page. Go 2010!
Tuesday, March 23, 2010
Peculiar Behavior...w/pic
"How can I not act 'kookoo' look what she did to my hair?"
Shhheesh..look at Mom's hair!
Some of Hope's behavior is seeming kind of strange. At first I thought..well not much thinking at all, cause I was exhausted...but now I feel there is some strange behavior going on. Hope sleeps much better, she has her nights-though its much better than before. She's a terrific eater and seems to have no allergies, we just had her finish up her Amoxicillin for a nasty ear infection. We took her to get her skull and bones evaluated..all look fine. Though, she has a certain capacity for being held, she slaps-alot! This part has me frustrated and even Hope probably, because when I tell her no and show that I am not happy...she starts to hit herself! She even bangs her head on the floor or on the wall. We don't know why she does this. When she tries to bite me and I tell her no she laughs! I think she bites because of the teething though. AAAAHHHHH...Hopee, Hopee...she needs a lot of emotional support it seems. The neglect in the orphanages to have their tolls I am afraid. We will get passed this, though any idea of more* children in the future..uuuhhh NO:) We are at capacity, I'm sure. Also, just Hope being a girl, is quite a spin on this family lol...what can I say? Its complicated! Hope also is crawling everywhere and getting into things..she bumped her head twice! I nearly died..and cried! She stopped crying when I started, and then smacked me...guess I needed that wink* I'll start posting more pics..when I can keep something cute in her hair long enough..grrrr..GIRLS!
Shhheesh..look at Mom's hair!
Some of Hope's behavior is seeming kind of strange. At first I thought..well not much thinking at all, cause I was exhausted...but now I feel there is some strange behavior going on. Hope sleeps much better, she has her nights-though its much better than before. She's a terrific eater and seems to have no allergies, we just had her finish up her Amoxicillin for a nasty ear infection. We took her to get her skull and bones evaluated..all look fine. Though, she has a certain capacity for being held, she slaps-alot! This part has me frustrated and even Hope probably, because when I tell her no and show that I am not happy...she starts to hit herself! She even bangs her head on the floor or on the wall. We don't know why she does this. When she tries to bite me and I tell her no she laughs! I think she bites because of the teething though. AAAAHHHHH...Hopee, Hopee...she needs a lot of emotional support it seems. The neglect in the orphanages to have their tolls I am afraid. We will get passed this, though any idea of more* children in the future..uuuhhh NO:) We are at capacity, I'm sure. Also, just Hope being a girl, is quite a spin on this family lol...what can I say? Its complicated! Hope also is crawling everywhere and getting into things..she bumped her head twice! I nearly died..and cried! She stopped crying when I started, and then smacked me...guess I needed that wink* I'll start posting more pics..when I can keep something cute in her hair long enough..grrrr..GIRLS!
Thursday, March 18, 2010
Happy Birthday Frederick John!
My eldest son just celebrated his 8th birthday. He's just getting more handsome by the minute;) It's been hard trying to make everything just right & perfect! We saw Alice in Wonderland...IT WAS AWESOME! Frederick got a Wii;)
Frederick John my first born; the child that turned me into a mother & woman...he'll always be my lil sidekick. A mother & son truly share a unique bond, and when he's a year older, it means I am too, since I'm the 26th.
I LOVE YOU DEARLY FREDERICK, you're a great helper!
XOX
Frederick John my first born; the child that turned me into a mother & woman...he'll always be my lil sidekick. A mother & son truly share a unique bond, and when he's a year older, it means I am too, since I'm the 26th.
I LOVE YOU DEARLY FREDERICK, you're a great helper!
XOX
Thursday, March 11, 2010
Post Adoption Blues
The only reason, I have been able to post on my blog is because of the sleepless days/nights. Hope is on her own schedule & agenda. She may sleep an hour, she may sleep ten minutes. I have been trying to sleep when she does, but it is hard with Noah.
Some have asked about details, about what it is like being home with the child, who comes from a far? It is just like coming home from the hospital with a newborn! Some of you have been fortunate with a baby that sleeps..that was never my luck! Hope is totally on board with the tradition;) She behaves just as my boys did. She loves all the attention, until she's had enough and then wants down. She loves her freedom! She wants to climb evrywhere and crawl and stand..although like I said in previous posts, I don't think she is strong enough yet, even though she refuses to acknowledge this...she is a lot like her older brother Frederick-very independant..I even caught her trying to put on her own socks;) My daughter is always smiling & laughing! Not the same child we had met a couple of months back.
How am I feeling these days? I have my ups and downs..well I guess today does not count, since my parents' dog died (my childhood dog) sniff sniff..yep, its gonna be a tissue day! 'Tayla' was adopted by me when I was fifteen, she was one. She was a skinny, abused sharpe mix..(her owners mistaken her for a pitbull and tried to beat her to get aggressive..but she was not), and she was so eager to come home with me that day. I brought her home and nursed her back to health. She became my best friend. She even kind of led me to my husband, on our long walks around the block (my then neighbor lived not so far away;) As strange as it is..I think I am also sad because she died on the 11th..the same number my uncle passed in July..I'm not a superstitious person..but its weird. I am not going to mark the 11th with tragedy, because we went to court February 11 for Hope, and it was a wonderous day.
Anyway, I'm moping! I haven't had much sleep because of Hope crying and then rolling around in bed with me, (me awake, trying to make sure she doesn't fall).
I am trying to make the family work and flow smoothly, so no one notices that four kids is harder than three..I think the house knows though. I snapped at Freddy yesterday;( Because, he didn't have Hope in her carseat (mennnn)..it still was not right for me to snap and get angry, especially in front of our neighbor!
I'm a little irritable..nervous..I think its the company..its been too much on me. People's opinions, people's suggestions...the truth of the matter is, that I get annoyed by some of the ignorance, especially now that I am vulnerable-almost an open wound...like a good friend of mine once stated. Don't come to visit me to see 'the adopted orphan'..visit because of the new addition, because of our celebration of love & happiness..don't come by, expecting to see something bizarre or something for entertainment!!
Guess I am venting out to you guys today! I am defeated. I am reading biblical scriptures to lift me up at night when I can't sleep. It really helps.
Hope does not feel any different than any of my other children. She behaves the same way they did, even her affection towards me. She reaches her hand into my neck or at times under my shirt, I guess to feel my warmth and she closes her eyes and nibbles on her blankie..we are one at that moment and she feels safe.
Its hard to believe even that we made those trips to Russia 3 times! I feel like it was all but a dream...like the stories I read her. Its as if she has always been here.
P.S. Once we know more detail about this mess in Russia and we can move on...please let me know if you want Hope's snowsuit, that was also once 'Boos' (Chandra's girl). We are to pass on the snowsuit to bring home other Angels from Russia. I just washed it, and since it is warming up in Russia, there is no real need to purchase one...or if you live in a freezing state, just consider not messing up your new one and just bring home your baby in this one. Please let me know, so I can send it to you.
J.xox
Some have asked about details, about what it is like being home with the child, who comes from a far? It is just like coming home from the hospital with a newborn! Some of you have been fortunate with a baby that sleeps..that was never my luck! Hope is totally on board with the tradition;) She behaves just as my boys did. She loves all the attention, until she's had enough and then wants down. She loves her freedom! She wants to climb evrywhere and crawl and stand..although like I said in previous posts, I don't think she is strong enough yet, even though she refuses to acknowledge this...she is a lot like her older brother Frederick-very independant..I even caught her trying to put on her own socks;) My daughter is always smiling & laughing! Not the same child we had met a couple of months back.
How am I feeling these days? I have my ups and downs..well I guess today does not count, since my parents' dog died (my childhood dog) sniff sniff..yep, its gonna be a tissue day! 'Tayla' was adopted by me when I was fifteen, she was one. She was a skinny, abused sharpe mix..(her owners mistaken her for a pitbull and tried to beat her to get aggressive..but she was not), and she was so eager to come home with me that day. I brought her home and nursed her back to health. She became my best friend. She even kind of led me to my husband, on our long walks around the block (my then neighbor lived not so far away;) As strange as it is..I think I am also sad because she died on the 11th..the same number my uncle passed in July..I'm not a superstitious person..but its weird. I am not going to mark the 11th with tragedy, because we went to court February 11 for Hope, and it was a wonderous day.
Anyway, I'm moping! I haven't had much sleep because of Hope crying and then rolling around in bed with me, (me awake, trying to make sure she doesn't fall).
I am trying to make the family work and flow smoothly, so no one notices that four kids is harder than three..I think the house knows though. I snapped at Freddy yesterday;( Because, he didn't have Hope in her carseat (mennnn)..it still was not right for me to snap and get angry, especially in front of our neighbor!
I'm a little irritable..nervous..I think its the company..its been too much on me. People's opinions, people's suggestions...the truth of the matter is, that I get annoyed by some of the ignorance, especially now that I am vulnerable-almost an open wound...like a good friend of mine once stated. Don't come to visit me to see 'the adopted orphan'..visit because of the new addition, because of our celebration of love & happiness..don't come by, expecting to see something bizarre or something for entertainment!!
Guess I am venting out to you guys today! I am defeated. I am reading biblical scriptures to lift me up at night when I can't sleep. It really helps.
Hope does not feel any different than any of my other children. She behaves the same way they did, even her affection towards me. She reaches her hand into my neck or at times under my shirt, I guess to feel my warmth and she closes her eyes and nibbles on her blankie..we are one at that moment and she feels safe.
Its hard to believe even that we made those trips to Russia 3 times! I feel like it was all but a dream...like the stories I read her. Its as if she has always been here.
P.S. Once we know more detail about this mess in Russia and we can move on...please let me know if you want Hope's snowsuit, that was also once 'Boos' (Chandra's girl). We are to pass on the snowsuit to bring home other Angels from Russia. I just washed it, and since it is warming up in Russia, there is no real need to purchase one...or if you live in a freezing state, just consider not messing up your new one and just bring home your baby in this one. Please let me know, so I can send it to you.
J.xox
Tuesday, March 9, 2010
Hope's finally asleep..shhhhhh!
I have managed to find some time to blog. Did not think I would be getting to blog so soon after Hope..lol but feel like I should just because of all the change that has been going on.
Hope is very attached to my husband and I..especially me. Though, sometimes she does not even want me to put her down;( Which can be difficult. Her sleeping was fine two nights ago, but last night and today its been kind of crazy! She takes these little cat naps, but then the batteries are charged again and she is wanting to no longer rest. In fact she seems quite restless. Her attention span is so short and she just wants to go go go..she does not like to be restricted! She is a feisty little thing and continues to want to climb and crawl and stand..she is determined to walk, though I feel, she may not be strong enough yet.
Today was our first visit with our pediatrician. It went well, although he is referring us to a couple of specialists to get more info on stuff. I guess because of the rickets, her fontanelle has not closed (which I have read is pretty common in post institutionalized children), but he wants more info like I said. Hope is on the 90th percentile for weight, she needs to be active, and on a consistantly healthy diet that will strengthen her bones. I now, walk to school to pick up the boys with Hope and Noah in the double jogger..its been doing us all good I think.
I am a little tired and cranky. I have not been sleeping well and of course at night I worry about Hope..I worry about the boys. Am I doing enough? Did anyone get jealous? Did they each get enough attention? Did Hope eat enough, etc.
Hope has went from no family, to an overwhelming amount of family, friends & neighbors..just all dying to finally meet her. I did not plan on overwhelming her, but felt secure enough in her development & attachment to allow this..although, I have to admitt, I am a tad overwhelmed by all the visits and questions.
I'm beginning to think, that with adoption, it never ends! The stress, the worries, the fears etc.
I am praying for all my fellow Pre-AP'S...stay strong!
GODBLESS;)
Hope is very attached to my husband and I..especially me. Though, sometimes she does not even want me to put her down;( Which can be difficult. Her sleeping was fine two nights ago, but last night and today its been kind of crazy! She takes these little cat naps, but then the batteries are charged again and she is wanting to no longer rest. In fact she seems quite restless. Her attention span is so short and she just wants to go go go..she does not like to be restricted! She is a feisty little thing and continues to want to climb and crawl and stand..she is determined to walk, though I feel, she may not be strong enough yet.
Today was our first visit with our pediatrician. It went well, although he is referring us to a couple of specialists to get more info on stuff. I guess because of the rickets, her fontanelle has not closed (which I have read is pretty common in post institutionalized children), but he wants more info like I said. Hope is on the 90th percentile for weight, she needs to be active, and on a consistantly healthy diet that will strengthen her bones. I now, walk to school to pick up the boys with Hope and Noah in the double jogger..its been doing us all good I think.
I am a little tired and cranky. I have not been sleeping well and of course at night I worry about Hope..I worry about the boys. Am I doing enough? Did anyone get jealous? Did they each get enough attention? Did Hope eat enough, etc.
Hope has went from no family, to an overwhelming amount of family, friends & neighbors..just all dying to finally meet her. I did not plan on overwhelming her, but felt secure enough in her development & attachment to allow this..although, I have to admitt, I am a tad overwhelmed by all the visits and questions.
I'm beginning to think, that with adoption, it never ends! The stress, the worries, the fears etc.
I am praying for all my fellow Pre-AP'S...stay strong!
GODBLESS;)
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