More things to do..while we wait

Well I contacted the FBI office in Virginia, expressing my concern as to why it was taking so long for our prints to be returned. They finally responded apologetically, and sayed we'd have them by this weekend, HOOORAY! Hmmmm..a little asking doesn't hurt I guess.

Also, since I have declared myself as a 'crazy impatient person' I am going to start on Hope's life book...which should keep my quite occupied. I am not very good at scrapbooking and stuff..but I am going to try my best and keep it simple but thorough.

Any ideas as to how or when you guys started yours, for your adopted children?

I guess that is it for this post. It's been a quiet fall so far in the adoption world of Russia...it doesn't worry me, but I do wonder what is to happen this winter, and if I should just remain laid back about it and carry on as normal...or do I put off vacationing plans or Disney plans? I feel so pathetic, there are families who have waited soooooooooooooo much longer and are sooooo coooooool about things..and here I am pouting after only a few months...hehe spoiled me!

Well that's IA for you;)

Chipmunks in the Pumpkin Patch

Guess which one is Alvin, Simon & Theodore?

MY SIS & I

SAdness..

I am just very very sad these days...I feel as though I have been doing nothing but grieving. Also, every new day and encounter just turns into something sadder for me. I am not taking the world's problems on my shoulders..because, trust me, mine are quite large enough! My uncle Arturo's case just gets worse and more complex with each passing moment. My family's grief has just spread out and turned into individual, vulnerability and darkness...with me trying to catch everyone and lift them..leaving me weak and exhausted..and sad..again. This adoption has also made my head spin at times..such strange twists of events..like the wheather..south Florida wheather even..totally unpredictable! YA YA YA...that's IA for you..bla bla bla..its torture.

My sister just found out that she is having another boy, who may have cysts in his brain (choroid plexus). I don't want to go into too much detail because it is just too painful for me right now..I am having one of those 'can't really breathe' moments. I know if we pray these cysts will disapear (as the doctor said they could by 28 weeks)..but if it is God's will that they don't, then there is a reson for everything and my sister will have him and raise him no matter what. Please pray for my family in this time of test & grief.
Health is all that is important...I hurt for my sis, because I just feel her young life has been nothing but a long rocky road. It just pains me..to see her not getting all that she deserves in this life; she is abeautiful person, inside and outside..and she deserves the best. I have my days where I wish we could switch, or I rather take on her burdens then see her go through them..she's my lil sis..I just want to protect her.


I give it to you LORD ALMIGHTY...I give my burdens and her burdens to you..please lift her up and bless her in a MIGHTY WAY GOD.



AMEN

LUKE 11:5-13 "ASK, SEEK, KNOCK!"

[5] Then he said to them, "Suppose one of you has a friend, and he goes to him at midnight and says, 'Friend, lend me three loaves of bread, [6] because a friend of mine on a journey has come to me, and I have nothing to set before him.'

[7] "Then the one inside answers, 'Don't bother me. The door is already locked, and my children are with me in bed. I can't get up and give you anything.' [8] I tell you, though he will not get up and give him the bread because he is his friend, yet because of the man's boldness he will get up and give him as much as he needs.

[9] "So I say to you: Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you. [10] For everyone who asks receives; he who seeks finds; and to him who knocks, the door will be opened.

[11] "Which of you fathers, if your son asks for a fish, will give him a snake instead? [12] Or if he asks for an egg, will give him a scorpion? [13] If you then, though you are evil, know how to give good gifts to your children, how much more will your Father in heaven give the Holy Spirit to those who ask him!"

Boating & Swimming;)

The Science Aviation Museum

IMPATIENCE!!!

"I am slowly going crazy 1-2-3-4 BLINK"....

Yep that's it..I see myself wanting to stay home more and hoping to hear the phone ring and get a call/info, on the latest with *Russia*. I have the disease..its bad and getting worse!

The funny thing..is that I see that a lot of PAP's get the same way and that it is normal..and sometimes I do think that, yes we do want 'the call' etc.

but, what do you actually do once you get the call?

Then what? Even this stresses me out...sheesh!

You start to stress about the arrangements and what is to be done from there?

..and so, I am getting the idea that 'adoption' is a heck of alot harder & a lot more complicating than pregnancy, that's for sure..because I don't think I got grey hair during pregnancy!

When you have other children in the home, its so hard to act as though you are fine, and that all is ok..and that your supposed to not be stressed about the adoption but.....eeeeek!

CRAZY is more like it!

I don't know what to expect..or what I am expecting in this adoption journey..sometimes I ask that of myself even...I guess I expect another child to join our family soon?.....well sooner would be better in my mind anyway;)

I know sometimes we stress over ridiculous things like...'well she won't be home for Christmas'...and what if we have to travel during those times..that is so inconvenient etc. Too often, we want convenience in our schedule and lives...I am sure God has this all figured out..and I am sure his timing will be best.
It hasn't been an easy year; my uncle's death is still fresh..and we go back and forth with grief and trying to go on and make plans for ourselves..and it does get hard..you feel like you end up no where in the end.

Just yesterday I heard a message on a Christian radio station I often listen to- (The Moody Bible Inst.), and it was a young girl who was speaking, she had just faught cancer. Her message, was about how a lot people without disease live in a way, where they take life for granted, and do nothing with their days, maybe because they are healthy today, and so they can always 'wait' for tomorrow, and do something tomorrow...but sometimes, we don't get a tomorrow..and that is what she was reminding us. So, now that her cancer is finally gone, she vows to live everyday as full as possible..as hard as that is sometimes..we should all atleast try, right?

That message really spoke to me in a very deep way; and could not have come at a better time in my life. There are days that I can be doing so much more..and I am not, and I feel very guilty for this. I don't want to waste my days either..life is too short. Even if I never make it to 'referral day' atleast, these were one of our plans..and aside from those plans; I was living life with my family everyday!

So yesterday, thanks to my hubby, -we went boating and swimming, and we went to the science museum the day before..I will post pics a little later..I just really wanted to post to let you know I am still here and smiling wink*


GOD BLESS!

Been Painting...crib's finally DoNE!

Here are some goofy pictures of myself hard at work..painting the baby girl's crib and trying to get it to match the rest of her furniture...I think its a pretty good match..was fun, but loooooong! You can't tell now..but this crib didn't start out so pretty! Mommy's no Picasso..but I put alot of love into this<3 <3 <3

P.S. Noah often fell asleep watching me..along with the dog;)